User blog:Blalafoon/Considering Rejoining

Three months ago, before I left, my mindset was along the lines of "Website before Users. I'm the only person who can do this." But, as more users came who kept understanding, bringing more and more valid points each time, I felt that I wasn't needed, and then left. Here I am three months later, taking a look back at the site. I figured it would live this long as it had people like Alyra maintating it, and then I pondered the reason I originally left, and I came up with the stress of arguing. Back then, I barely had any help with the site and was it's lone maintainer. Tre was Tre, and the admins were either starting out, or just plain lazy. The stress of my job got under my skin, with so many users asking for more content and the like, to the point where I had enough and just ragequit...

...but then now, I take another look at it. I see that's it's just as good, hell, better than it was before. I knew that the website would be fine without me, but it took me this long to realize that what would it be but better with me? I now see that the issue was not the stress of having the "If I don't who will" mindset, but that I wasn't willing to give people a shot. I was so worried about them changing the system, that I never saw how those changes could benefit it.

Most people know that this website has a certain charm; many can't find it in themselves to leave, and if they do, they have a hard time resisting the urge to come back, and I, like many, have fallen under this spell. I miss the community, I missed the fun competitive fighting system we had. Hell, I once conjured up some great sig ideas, and then remembered that I left. I see that this reason I left was a selfish one

I know that back then, I did some really, /really/ foolish things, and I hope I have attoned for those in my original leaving blog. I don't know if I still seem like a jerk to anybody, but I need to know, do you want me back?

"Do you want me back?" Yes. No.

I don't want to seem like an attention whore by doing this, but I won't tread where I'm not wanted.

Thanks for your time~

 Blalafoon   Talk •  Contribs  03:34, September 24, 2014 (UTC)